My life as member of SAPALA was back

After four or five weeks of hiatus, finally SAPALA (SiswA PecintA aLAm / students of nature lovers) started its
activity. The reason of inactive was some events happened before and after mid-semester
exam. SAPALA is an extracurriculer. Despite its name, it’s less focused to environment
matters I though. And yet I joined because of these. Even so it contributed in many event
of such, so it’s not bad..
Other reason was I wanted to climbing to top of a mountain. Unfortunely I didn’t attend it,
though it just held before the mid-semester exam. “Creepy~” The communication between the
other members and me was awful (they hadn’t my phone number), I didn’t get the plan
explanation told, and I hate carbondioxide-emitting motorcycles (they rode these). I don’t
mind if I couldn’t go, I’m perfectly fine with this.
Well, it isn’t like I hoped this kind of life returned. Just need something to write




I remembered the time I being asked what vocaloid is. I couldn’t give a good proper answer but I was honestly speaking up about vocaloid. My answer was it’s a software to make the vocal for song, but the reality I didn’t say clearly so that the person who asked it got rather wrong impression about what vocaloid is. Therefore, then I planned to prepare a nice answer if I being asked the same thing in the future.

If we talk about Vocaloid, it has two meanings. First, Vocaloid as a vocal-synthesizing software. Those voices are supplied by voice banks refer as vocalist, for example Miku
Hatsune. Each voice bank has many different versions, for example Miku Hatsune or Hatsune Miku has V2, V3, V3 ENGLISH, etc. Those V2 and V3 are respective version based the version of the Vocaloid software. The Second, Vocaloid as a unique type of songs. This means any song that its vocal provided by Vocaloid vocal bank(s) is called Vocaloid song or simply call it as Vocaloid. Peoples who work in the creation of vocaloid song are called producer, it includes the provider of illustration, music(s), and movie if any.

Well, it looks like a bit long. Let’s shorten it!

“Vocaloid has two meaning. First, it as a vocal synthesizing software. The second, it as a type of song that use Vocaloid software in its producing.”

Not good enough?

I am Indonesian but I love Yuri



Good day to everybody who have or want a good day. This is my written rant, “I am Indonesian but I love Yuri.”

So let’s start this by explaining what Yuri is. Yuri is a japanese word means Lily. Yuri that I talk about refers to love between girls or most-known as lesbian. Yup, I love it. For certain I just love it in fiction, like novel, manga, anime. I’m a weaboo, after all. And I had lost my sexual interest at heart. Put that aside and let’s continue!

Yuri or Girls Love is classified into two in Western: Yuri and Shoujo Ai. Some peoples think that Yuri is hard-core (sex included) and Shoujo Ai is soft-core. But their actual meaning are actually same, unless Yuri come together with NSFW (nudity). I like to call shoujo ai as Subtext, though it seems the actual meaning of it is rather different. If you want to know more about Yuri, please ask the experts (search engines included). I’m not the expert, sorry. For me both yuri and shoujo ai are same, so if I say yuri, it refers both of them.

Around 2 months ago, LGBT (Lesbian, Gay, Bisexsual, and Transgender) became a popular discussion in Indonesia. Most peoples denied the existence of LGBT in society. They thought LGBT broke the Indonesian young-generation’s moral and character. Well, I’m neutral. I don’t think this is good, but I don’t think this is bad either. So I decide to be neutral. Surely Indonesia wouldn’t accept LGBT for now. You know most muslims live here. Homosexual or ‘liwath’ isn’t accepted in Islam. About moral and character, mine was already broken. Let’s leave this LGBT matter and get back to the Yuri!

Why did I love Yuri? Umm, the reason was not interesting and actually boring. I call the love between boy and girl as ‘normal’. Being an abnormal or weirdo is unique and special, you know. In that day (WHAT DAY AND WHEN!? I don’t remember). I was a middle schooler and (a little) active member of KAORI Nusantara. I found a Yuri club, I took a look one of the threads in the forum, and read the introduction of Yuri. I got myself interested to yuri, yup I joined the club. I saw Hardakito written in the club members list and a small Yuri banner placed on my profile. Wow~ I was active for a month or two, then became a silent member. That was me in every internet community. I’m more like observer now, write an opinion if I want to. Although I was a middle schooler, I had read a few NSFW (+ sex too) Yuri mangas. Unfortunately I don’t remember the titles so that I can’t add them into my manga list in MyAnimeList. What ever, it’s fine. Oh yeah.. If you don’t mind, visit my MAL profile. To be honest, I got my self addicted to Yuri just a week or two before that LGBT thing. I had lost my interest to the normal (IRL) and had no intention to roll back to a normal. Yup, I lose my desire to human. Forget it, it isn’t important!

Why was Yuri interesting for me? Umm, I had addicted to girls since I was child, really. I loved observing them and wanted to be born as girl also that time. A few peoples around me made a joke of me as a girl born as a boy, because my rather girlish attitude. Ah, I don’t care about it. I also had interest of both girl and boy when I was middle schooler. Well, I was a bisexual, huh? LOL. Don’t need to worry about that, I had cured it by myself and of course by the help of the God too. Alhamdulillah. My addiction of girls was moved from humans onto fictional characters after I became a weaboo. I love watching all girls anime, but I’m no fan of idols. See them in good relation is a happiness. And the most happiness is coming from their love into each others. Oww, the power of empathy is so strong! Yuri is really entertaining. It’s unique and the most important is less (or no) ‘normal’. Having no couple because of this isn’t matter, I’m fine perfectly (I hope).

What kind of Yuri do I love the most? Umm, exactly I haven’t particular one. I usually read Yuri mangas with slice of life, school, comedy, or romance genres. I like them, peaceful life is good. But I like the opposite too, for example Shoujou Shikoku where a lot of paired girls killing each other pairs (I gave it a perfect score). You can conclude that Yuri mangas scored 10 are the most I love, but that isn’t a proper answer to this question. So let me review some aspects would determine that.
First, its art. I’m selective in art of mangas I want to read. The score would drop if the art isn’t good enough. Second, the story. I place story in second priority after art usually. The most important parts of this are the girls relation and its development. I take Hana to Hoshi for example. NO SPOILER, I hope. A story about the protagonist’s one-sided love and her effort to change this unmutual love. There are a few conflicts and the comedy gives extra excitement. unfortunately the story doesn’t focused to the sport, table tennis (if you look for it). In general, Hana to Hoshi is enjoyable for anybody who look for school life, light comedy, or Yuri. Third, the characters. I like girls with girl looking, I mean they don’t resemble boy a lot. I like untied hair, if tied I prefer twintail. Short haired or long? Both are good. Animal tail or ears? I prefer cat, but I like rabbit too. I love pettan, flat-chested is the best and big breast is acceptable specially in Yuri. Young and little girls are great. I’m a (pervert) lolicon but no pedophile, so I don’t like sex including little girl though it’s a yuri. In short, I love cute girls. For psychic, I love innocent, honest, and reliable girl. The example of such figure is Haru in Gouhou Yuri Fuufu Hon. Anyway, psychic has relation to dere types, does it? I like them except Yandere. It’s scary but sometime make the story be entertaining more.
The summary. The Yuri mangas I love the most must have good art, cute girl characters in physic and psychic, also nice story development. A good example for these is Yuri Yuri. Ah! About Yuri anime I can’t speak, because I’m new to non-subtext Yuri anime. For novel, I just read Sonohabira. Never play Yuri visual novel or eroge.

Never expected psychological novel would be very exciting

I wrote this after completed reading the third chapter of last volume of Utsuro no Hako to Zero no Maria (The Empty Box and The Zeroth Maria) novel. It’s a novel with psychological, horror, and supernatural. I went crazy as the protagonist who’d keep himself remember and remembering the girl he loved, though the situation forced him till death to forget her. I laughed like person enjoyed reading comedy story. Why? It’s because a simple phrase, “400,000th time”. If a year same as 365 days, then 400,000 days = 1000 years + 35,000 days = 1000 + 70/73*100 years. People would lost humanity if tortured endlessly for that long.

I’m new to psychological-genred novel. I just had complete a single novel had this genre so far, and it’s a oneshot. I started interested to psychological genre since I completed Iris on Rainy Days. So what’s interest me? It’s usual thing I cared, how the story affects the reader’s psychic. Expressive person may cry, curse, angry, and such by read a story, but I found this genre is much effective to do this job than stories without it. I really wanted to know this more, it’s as exciting as energy matters! I recalled a sentence, ‘pen is mightier than a sword’. Eh, really? Pierce people heart with words?

Human heart in machines @Sci-fi

I quickly opened Kingsoft Office and write this while I was almost crying of unexpected thing. I was reading a novel, ‘CtG (Cradle to the Glaive)’, it’s about boy and girl who married in game have a child given by the system. I was realizing the child can understand ‘family’, when I just reached in the middle of first chapter of the first volume. The child makes two exact copy of origami her father made but bigger, and a mushroom-like origami. Before she does that, she thought the origami made by her father is herself. Now there are a little Yokko 1, two bigger Yokkos, and a mushroom-like origami. After thought for awhile, I realized that the little one is the child, the bigger ones are the parent, and a mushroom-like one is a NPC (looks like) which take care of the child if her parent are offline. (Sorry for the spoiler)
I had interest to human-like nonhuman recently :3 I mean robot or such which has human-like appearance and attitudes. This similar case can be found in popular animations, like Sword Art Online and Log Horizon. For recent animations there are Plastic Memories (artificial heart) and Dimension W (imagine robot and human melt into one: artificial heart, organs, and even blood cells).
Sci-fi surely is interesting.
The second case, the child is very angry to the robber who bother her most waited time to play with her parent and attacks him with knives her father gave (inside game certainly). This case has negative side too (in the chapter one’s ending).
I won’t give much spoilers for the sake of peoples who haven’t read this. Baka-Tsuki has its English translation.

Iris in Rainy Days, a good novel I recommend about human-like robot.


  1. It’s written as 奴(やっこ) or Yakko, it is the name/title for servant of Samurai family from Edo period. (BakaTsuki )

What should I know to be a good Parent?

I began to give this matter a thought while I was reading the second chapter of the first volume of CtG novel where the father, Yuu thought about proper parent. Although I haven’t any intention to marry somebody, I still wanted to adopt a child. Every time I thought about this matter, the first thing comes up to my mind is how to give him/her a proper education. The education I mean here is wide, not limited to cognitive and non-cognitive, but everything the child would need in the future. I also made myself a subject of my observation to the psychological affects education. But I started to realize there are a few things that seems to be forgotten by this me. I would take some time to understand these, but for certain money isn’t one of them.